Just when you think things are going right...God throws a curveball at you when you least expect it. I started this year with great hopes of getting a full time job, living a less stressful life, starting coaching at the Fort, having a healthy cancer free boyfriend, and just enjoying life. Most of these have been spot on...I got a full time job, I've started coaching at the Fort and love it, I'm still working on not stressing out and had a healthy boyfriend....until today. I really hope this is the last time, third time is a charm right? SO hopefully that means it's the final roller coaster ride! If anyone can do it and push through this a third time, I know it's Jer. He's the strongest and most courageous guy I've ever met!
For those of you who know me even in the least bit, know that I love helping people. Part of the reason I started coaching at the Fort. I will do anything for the people in my life to make sure they are happy or to make sure they get what they need. And when I can't do anything I feel so helpless. And this is the most helpless I have ever felt. I can't say anything to fix it, I can't do anything to fix it, I have been begging God to give him a break and that hasn't worked....what else can I do?! I just feel lost.
I've been crying on and off at work, in the car, at the gym, and at home since 2:00 when I heard the news. Not only because my heart is hurting, but because of all the wonderful people in my life. When I looked on Facebook or at my phone to see how many people are out there supporting Jer, I couldn't help but tear up. And what made it even better, is that the majority of these people I've known for barely a year and they're all from the Fort. Thank God for CrossFit Fire and all the loving people from there! You guys continue to amaze me and I can't thank you enough for the endless amounts of support you all are providing. I honestly couldn't make it through this without all of you. I love you all!
Please continue to pray and think positive thoughts!
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Kirsten, you say that YOU'RE the lucky ones, but I feel like it's the other way around. All of us at the Fort are lucky to have you and Jer as part of our family. I've watched you go from timid girl, to badass athlete full of confidence! You and Jeremy BOTH inspire the people around you every single day. Thank you for always staying positive. Jeremy's a strong guy....even stronger now that he has his Fort Family behind him!
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