Neglect

Blog. Only one word describes this blog and it's neglect. I haven't done a thing with it since October and before that I was barely posting. Life happened, I suppose. But at the same time I remember feeling better when I posted regularly. It's going to be hard to post on a daily basis once school starts, but hopefully I can manage a few times a week.

Work. One word...sucks. I had nearly two weeks off of work and it was the best two weeks I've had in a long time. I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I didn't have to go to bed every night, dreading waking up in the morning. I had nights where I got 12 hours of sleep, twelve! I was able to do things for me, spend more time with my family, spend more time with Jer, spend more time at the gym. I felt like me again. And now, now I'm back to feeling like crap. It's disgusting how quickly this job affects me. If it wasn't for the pay check, I wouldn't be there. I hope something comes up closer to home, sooner than later. If not, I have to stick this out until the end of the year. I just hope I can keep my sanity until then...

School. The end of last semester was stressful, but I finished with an A in Bio and a B in psychology. I shouldn't have taken a half semester for psychology and I probably would've gotten an A. This semester, one word...rough. I'm going to have class Monday, Wednesday and Friday nights and Saturday mornings. I'll be taking A&P and the CNA course. I'm not going to have a social life. It's going to be hard to balance work, school, the gym, family, and boyfriend. But it's only 16 weeks. 16 weeks compared to the rest of my life being miserable. In the long run, it's worth it.

Family. One word...love. I couldn't be happier. I constantly get asked, "how can you still be living at home with your parents?" Honestly, I love it. I love the relationship I have with my parents. They're some of the most important people in my life, and it's honestly going to be hard the day I move out. My brother and sister-in-law were home for a week and it was great. It's never long enough though. This year was the most I've seen of them, but I feel like that wasn't even a lot. But I've got a good feeling we will see more of each other (hopefully), since they gave us a great Christmas present! :)

Boyfriend. One word...fighter. Jer continues to amaze me on a daily basis. He's really taking his health in his own hands. He's not letting his dad control as much. He's been blessed with lots of people more than willing to help. He's made so much progress in the gym in the last two months. He's starting to eat better. He's making progress with Dr. Tony. He's determined the cancer will not come back. He's my biggest supporter. No matter how many stupid petty fights we get in, he still loves me. And I can't thank him enough. This cancer will not come back. He is moving forward with his health, school, a job and more. 2012 is his year!

Friends. One word...supportive. I was afraid when I moved back home from college that I wasn't going to make any friends, I was going to be lonely, it was going to be hard. But now, I have some of the most supportive and amazing friends I've ever had. They're constantly with me 100%. Not only do they want me to succeed at the gym, but in every aspect of my life. They have been some of the biggest supporters of my career change and going back to school. Without them, life would be pretty difficult. My other friends that I don't see nearly as often or don't communicate with as much as I wish, I miss you. It sucks how easily life catches up to us and before you know it months have passed before we've talked or seen each other. I hope I can do a better job at keeping in touch with you guys this year.

CrossFit. One word...rollercoaster. It's been a crazy ride the last 5 or so months. I made one of the hardest decisions, I've had to make in a long time. I risked hurting people's feelings and losing some relationships, but in the end, it was the right decision. It's hard to see so much petty stuff going on, instead of everyone being supportive. I pray that one day we can all be friends, but it's hard to see at this point. When it comes to training, there have been plenty of ups and downs. There's days where I crush it and then there's plenty of days where I don't know why I even stepped foot into the gym. But I can learn just as much if not more from those days, than from the good days. I've accomplished some of my goals and I feel like I'm getting stronger. But boy do I want to get stronger! I'm going to tweak my training some to see if it helps me get stronger, so I will be sure to keep you updated. The Open starts in 5 weeks and I wish I was more advanced than I am. It's my fault because of how busy my life is and I know this. I have a lot of progress to make, but I'm excited to see how I do in the Open. Hopefully I can help Prevail get a team to regionals!

Kirsten. One word...motivated. In the next year or so there's going to be a lot of changes. Mainly with school and work. I'm not sure how everything is going to play out, but all I know is I am beyond determined to get out of the position I'm in right now. There's no way I can live like this, it just isn't me! I'm determined to achieve a lot of goals in the gym. It's going to be hard the next few months with not being able to train as much, but maybe that will be good for my body...I'm determined to stay healthy, to eat better, to get more sleep, and to take care of myself. If I don't care for myself, I'm not going to provide for everyone else the way I should. I'm determined to make my relationship stronger. I'm determined to be supportive in every way I can. I'm determined to not stress as much. I'm determined to live life to the fullest.

2012. One word...epic. So I'm holding this year to high expectations. But for real, it's going to be a good year. Jer is going to be healthy, I'm going to be steps closer to starting a new career, I'm going to make progress in the gym, I'm going to strengthen my relationships with family and friends, and so much more. Epic.